Sunday, April 29, 2012

I found

That it is more a state of mind and attitude!

Hula

Hoops. I always loved them. Don’t know why I ever quit!

Music. A big passion of mine. I refuse to turn the volume down anymore!

Plants!

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I manages to remember to do get this done this morning. They were so thirsty. I will get a picture later. I love my plant babies.

Let me see

Chico a bath
Look up real estate license status and decide to keep it or not.

I know I will get chico done! Lol

Did this

Now I just have to keep it picked up…..

Hula

Hoops. I always loved them. Don’t know why I ever quit!

Music. A big passion of mine. I refuse to turn the volume down anymore!

Got

My Hula Hoop today. I did better then I expected! I plan to do this daily. It makes me smile.

4-29-12

Gratefulness

For

Shoneys with the family and yes sharing hot fudge cake!

Wheelchair races in wally world with my in-laws.

New ipod speakers! Batteries corroded my other ones.

Hula hoops

Warm weather!

Saturday, April 28, 2012

Maybe

Unrealized dreams. Time to change that.

Also past resentments! Time to change that as well.

Passions!

Somewhere along the way I forgot what I loved. So hence this goal.
I have a passion for…
Cats!

Friday, April 27, 2012

4-26-12

Grateful
For phone call with my sister. She is bringing her gang on May 6th for my b-day.

For long talk with my Mom on phone.

For all the lovely flowers here that are blooming.

For the dogs in the neighborhood greeting each other on their daily walks. They like seeing each other.

For being

Thursday, April 26, 2012

Monday, April 23, 2012

Three old creative block enemies

I wrote three down. One was actually my old high school.

I worked on the first one. My Dad’s Mom. My grandma. I was always told how she had her favorites. I was told how when I was around eight years old I asked her why she didn’t love me. I do not remember doing this. But I still hear my Mom saying negative things about her. Over and over. Well as I was writing about this I realized Grandma was probably a big introvert like me and only let in those that were around a lot. We were not as my Dad was in the Air Force. So I wrote that I forgave her no matter if it was imagined or real and I prayed she would forgive me.

Then I went off to clean my kitchen and turned some music on. Willie Nelson filled my ears with Always on my mind. It was like she was saying I thought of you often. I Love you. It was overwhelming to the point I balled my eyes out.

I feel a connection with her that I have never felt and am thinking to myself ” I have been dragging this crap around all these years.”.
I honestly did not expect this drastic of a reaction on my part. I feel like for the first time it is OK to love my Grandmother.

Sunday, April 22, 2012

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Gratefuls

Hubby brought me a black angry bird stuffed animal with sound!

Chico was a happy dog today.

Chili!

Cool rainy day.

Lost two pounds this week!

Saturday, April 21, 2012

Saturday

I got up around seven worked on my morning pages project and then decided to sneak back to bed for just a bit. It is Saturday and everybody deserves to sleep in once in a while. In my case everyone got to sleep in because I am usually getting everyone up!

It was what I wanted to do.

The Artist's Way week one first day.

I did my morning pages. Lots of talk about the mother-in-law. She was very confused last night.

One of the exercises ask that you write down three old enemies of your creative self. “Hisoric Monsters”. I just can’t think of any. I just thought of one. My Father’s Mother. I will add that to my list. No big secret here. But the thing is how did this Affect me as a child and carry through to adulthood.

Now for two more!

The first week also starts you on affirmations. Those are easy. It is just the negative thoughts that pop up when you write or say them. Need to write those as I go along as these are things that you hold onto.

So here starts my journey with the artist’s way.

Friday, April 20, 2012

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I bought the book yesterday in the ibooks store. I am through the introduction and starting on the the first week.

I have already started the morning pages for the past two days.

I find it interesting that they are not as negative as the first time I did this. I know my heart is in such a different place today.

Today

I actually got 20 minutes in. These hills are killer! Good exercise for the chihuahua and I. It is still cool out and it still hurts my ankle to walk much but I know I need to keep it up.

Thursday, April 19, 2012

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Gratitudes

Cool spring breezes

Sad but fond memories

Dogs that gulp there treats. A chihuahua ate half a hot dog without chewing. Kind of scary.

Family

Freshly mown yards

Watched

A movie tonight that reminded me of myself and my best friend in high school. It made me cry. I think of him often. I miss him a lot. He was probably the best friend I have ever had. The story of the movie was not us. Well to some degree it was but the personalities were so similar and it was set in the 80’s. It was hitting home.

I hope he is OK wherever he is.

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

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Grateful for

Dad eating on his own. Messy but by himself!

Ribeyes on the grill mmmmmm!

Getting routine shopping done.

Respite help gave me time to do some shopping.

Rereading SwanSong by Robert Mccammon

Yea!

I bought some clothes and 25$ itunes and bought storyist with some left for some books!

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

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I am grateful

For peaceful thunderstorms.

Getting a few bucks for watching neighbors dogs.

Sleepy Chico the chihuahua in my lap.

Time off from the regular stuff?

Being a peace for just a little while.

Lunch out

With my hubby. Then shopping, got a cute new shirt.
Raced home before the big storm.

Monday, April 16, 2012

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I am grateful
For a pretty day

For a quick lunch out with my husband

For my interesting neighbors that have interesting yard stuff. Like a big blue metal bird.

For the slower life of this small city.

For uncles that help when there is no where else to look. I so plan to pay it forward.

Saturday, April 14, 2012

April 14th 2012

I am grateful
That I am sane enough to know a commercial is not a tv show being repeated over and over.

To make it through this day. It has been a very trying day.

That I made a new friend on Deviant Art.

That dad is active even though that is more work for me.

For early bedtimes for the parents. It is like having children!

Friday, April 13, 2012

Today 4-13-12

I am accepting that my darling husband is often annoying. I don’t feel wrong saying this.

I was busy getting the in-laws breakfast and he kept wanting me to help him put a new light in the kitchen.

It’s not that easy. Mom has her pills,coffee,milk and oh yes don’t forget her water. Dad has to have all soft food plus his pills have to be crushed into his food. Then it takes over a half hour to feed him. He has gone past being able to do this on his own.

Enough. I looked at him with a look like come on i have got to do this now. Duh! Finally he backed off.

Then we had planned to work on cleaning out the shed while the respite worker was here. She was supposed to be here at 2:00. She never showed. So instead of calling her or texting her to see what was going on I called the office and spoke with her boss. I was nice but like hey what is going on. I know at times numbers get fudged but I am tires of people taking advantage of us and my in-laws.

So no cleaning out the shed. We can’t leave them alone and it will take both my husband and I to move some of the stuff. I am a bit aggrevated. Don’t I have the right to be? Regardless it is how I feel.

Great Morning

It is just so very pretty out. The Chico and I really enjoyed our quiet peacful walk. There are still lots of flowers and Grandfather Mountain is just awsome on the skyline. The pictures I take just never do it justice.

4-12-12

I am grateful for
1. Getting some extra cash for dog watching.
2. Cool clear nights. You can see the stars here better at night then when I lived in Augusta.
3. Cats and yarn
4. That Dad-in-law is still eating. Even though we have to feed him.
5. Birds in the morning.