5-30-12

I am tired. I am stressed out. I don’t want to get burned out.

Our respite care company is shutting the doors in a month. It freaked me out at first. Six hours a week of free time may not seem like much but when you are stuck with people that are so sick and frail all the time it is a major emotional drain.

I guess we will survive. At least I do have relief every Tuesday.
Still it was a blow to me and it upset me.

There are folks out there in worse shape then us. So very sad.

At least my in-laws have us. Some people have no one and respite care is being cut on many levels.

Sometimes I wonder how long this will go on. It is hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I don’t want to wish them in the grave. Yet I want my life back. I miss it. Does that make me a bad person?

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May 30, 2012

Gratitudes

Lawn service went down by 10$. More people in the neighborhood everyone benefits.

Dad-in-law a bit slower but still literally had to hold him down from about 6 pm onward. He can’t seem to shut off at all.
I am grateful he was slower during the day as I managed to get laundry done and cook supper.

God

Family

Pets

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Just

Just when I think I am doing Okay with my moods etc. I start on that slippery slope down.

I refuse to do this. I am not my emotions. What do I do?

I put my nose to the grindstone and refuse to let it happen.

One day at a time.

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Tuesday today

Went Hickory to get Revy’s sample of contact’s he is trying out. My appointment is next month. I will be super glad to get contacts again!

We ate at Mellow Mushroom. BBQ chicken pizza yum! 2 years since we have eaten at a Mellow Mushroom. Our little town does not have much.

Bought several new tubes of acyrlic paints that were on sale. Now to find quiet time to ise them. It has been crazy here with the In-laws.

Spoke with the Dr about Dad trying a new drug for sleep etc. who knows…

Drove down to Cajah’s Mtn. and then to Valdese just to be out and about. It was a nice day.

Why am I feeling so low?

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5-28-12

Grateful

For buying childrens stackable toy and some soft squishy nerfy balls for my father-in-law. It seems to be keeping his hands and mind active. Thank goodness we were at our wits end! One more toy on the way called a tangle that many alzheimer patients like to fiddle with.

Hot dogs,hamburgers and potato salad.

Friends.

We watched to Tweety bird cartoons one from 1945 the other 1949. Tweety used to be beige and was mean!

Watched a little rascals episode. With a wild man who had a tail. The only one I have seen I liked! It made me laugh!

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True to me

I am tired of not being able to go to the bathroom without someone else here to watch the fil.

The dog is tired of having to wait too.

If I can’t have time to do everyday things like laundry supper etc. then this will not work.

I have to watch the fil all the time. If I interfere to keep him from getting hurt he has started getting agressive.

What am I to do. If I am not healthy how can I take care of both the father-in-law and the mother-in-law. I have had two big colds in as many months. I know this is from stress. Not getting me time.

Speaking of which. Havemto run he is on the move again.

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5-26-12

Gratitudes

1. My cold seems to not be getting worse.
2. A roof over my head.
3. Trees
4. Husband
5. Pets

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